{Rosie the Riveter} 2013
It was fun. I did last year too.
{Sheldon Cooper} 2012
I can count on one hand the number of times I've dressed up for this crazy holiday as an adult. Got lots of positive feedback on my super cool strong chick look today... so that's a bonus!
I can count on one hand the number of times I've dressed up for this crazy holiday as an adult. Got lots of positive feedback on my super cool strong chick look today... so that's a bonus!
It got me thinking about masks and inevitably my mind jumped to hiding. I hide all the time. Don't get me wrong, I try not to lie and I'm very open with my emotions when I am hormonal, tired, or just down right pissy. LOML knows how I feel by looking at me... Close friends can sense my sadness....I wear those emotionally spastic feelings on my sleeve. But I hide.... A LOT. I hide from my family, my friends, my coworkers. And {NEWSFLASH} I hide from myself.
I'm funny. I make jokes. I'm sarcastic. I go with the flow.... It's all good. No worries.... I'm easy {easy like Sunday morning.... Not easy like easy.} Just ask LOML. These are my masks.
I'm funny. I make jokes. I'm sarcastic. I go with the flow.... It's all good. No worries.... I'm easy {easy like Sunday morning.... Not easy like easy.} Just ask LOML. These are my masks.
When I feel inadequate as a mother - I joke about how I can't wait 'til the day I'm kid free. {I say it but we all know I'll be a hot mess when T & J really leave}.
When I feel inadequate as a wife I about how irritating LOML makes me sometimes {again- we all know I'd be lost....LOST without that man.}
When I fail on a diet - my explanations to everyone {and myself} drip with sarcasm instead of honestly facing that I failed again.
When I am overwhelmed at work - I pay a cool and confident. {inside I'm like oh shit, shit, shit, oh shit}.
When I'm up to my eyeballs in commitments and someone says can you… And I say sure no problem, of course, whatever you need. {actually my brain is screaming No! No! I can't do another fucking thing...if I do my heart might explode}.
I'd venture a guess that everyone has a mask or two. Think about it...if we didn't, everyone would know everything about everybody and we all be so worried about everyone else that we'd have EVEN more reasons to hide. So here's my vow: I can't guarantee I'll never use my masks.... But I'll try to be more aware of them and work on being real. Sometimes it's gonna make people go - she's a hot mess - sometimes they'll think I'm glad she said that.... I understand her a little more now, some will just say- shut up!!!!! And it's ok. I'm a work in progress. And you lucky folks get to tag along for the ride..... Only if you want to :)
Happy Halloween
I saw no mask yesterday. All I saw was a gorgeous, confident woman who is growing and ready to embark on the journey of her life. Your walls are coming down. Enjoy the crumble! It may be shitty at times but I for one will be here for all of the rubble.
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